The Good, The Bad, And The Not So Ugly.

I remember the thoughts of me being pregnant. How stupid I was for letting this happen to me. But we deal with the consequences.

After finding out I was pregnant I was farther along than I thought. I was 4 months along when I found out. We knew we were running out of time until she was born. So we decorated a nursery at Soda's.

With all the baby drama in our hands we still chose God parents for her. We chose Steve and Evie and Sylvia and Johnny. I knew that the gang will have to adjust to a baby but will I adjust?

So after all that planning and time put into getting ready for our child you can imangine how emotional we both were. After 26 hours of labor the nurse hands me this beautiful thing.....

Jordyn Brynn Rose Curtis was born 10:22 PM- October 31. Weighing at 7 pounds 3 oz was the most beautiful and fragile thing I've ever seen. She will have to adjust to her HUGE family and her parents constantly fighting. But when she entered the world I realized how much I love Soda and our new daughter.

It's My Party And I'll Cry If I Want To

I woke up breathing heavy in a hospital bed. I gripped the sides of the bed panting making
sure the baby's okay. I felt her kick and I sighed in relief.  I got up and looked in the
mirror. I looked perfectly fine except that I just looked spooked.
The doctor came in, "Sandy you're being released your older sister is here." I nodded. 
"Wait let me get a nurse to help you."
"I think I can manage getting dressed." 
The doctor nodded and left. I sighed and got changed. Then I realized "WHAT older sister?" I
got out anyway and saw Evie grinning. 
"Come on Sandra." I held back a laugh and followed her as she led me to the car. I sat in silence holding back
tears she wanted to kill me. Evie parked in front of her house.
"What are we doing here?"
"You're kicked out of your house remember?" 
Tears welled up in my eyes, "Yes I remember,"
Evie's look softened, "Sorry," She whispered.
She opened the door and I followed her and I turned on the lights. Everyone jumped out, "Evie, my birthday's not until April."
"It's called a baby shower idiot."
I put on a fake smile as I got severe pains in my stomach. People came with gifts which helps me out A LOT. I saw Soda there smiling at me from across the room his hands jammed in his Jean pockets. He made his way towards me and kissed me. My eyes widened as I kissed him back.
"Sandy, I was stupid and seeing you... Made me realize how much I love you. So will you be my girl again?"
People around me were dancing and laughing, I saw all of her new things piled up. My face paled as I felt it.
"Sandy? Say something."
"My water just broke."

And Sometimes You Just Have To Grow Up

"Sandy!" I heard my mom's whismichal voice ring. I tried to do up the zipper on my white empire waist maternity dress that I bought just 2 weeks ago. I groaned as the zipper wouldn't do up. I bit my lip and sighed. Ah fuck it I thought taking off the dress and putting on a loose pair of sweatpants. I pulled on a tank top then put a sweatshirt over it. I pulled my blonde hair up and went downstairs. I sighed as I clutched my stomach going onto the couch. I turned on MTV and just decided to watch 16 and Pregnant. Since I am one of them I thought. I took a handful of the greasy buttery popcorn to satisfy some craving it was laying on the wooden coffee table with only 3 legs. My mom sat down next to me sighing tucking a piece of her blonde hair behind her ear. My mom took the bowl away from me, "No. You can't afford the grams of fat and the empty calories this is loaded with. I mean look at you ever since you quit cheerleading you've just been eating and crying. You've gained more than enough weight already." I sighed sitting up attempting to pull my sweatshirt over my knees. The baby kicked and I lunged forward. "Look at those girls. Nothing but dissapointment I tell you. Ruining their lives by having sex before marriage good thing you're celibate and choosing to wait. I mean you're beautiful I'm surprised you're not like one of them." I sighed. "Mom." "And if you were I would never be so dissapointed I mean with your father walking out last month. What were you going to say." "Mom... I'm pregnant." Her jaw dropped and her fists were clenched. "Sandra Mary Michaels are you kidding me?!" She got up taking a swig of her Whiskey. She finished it cracking it on the table. "It's not possible." I nodded with tears falling down my face. She set her bottle down and lifted up my sweatshirt and my tank top to reveal my baby bump. "How far along are you?!" "About 9 months..." She took the bottle and aimed for my stomach I guarded it and she ended up hitting my head. I screamed as she continued. I laid there protecting my little girl as I saw blood drip out of my skull and every where else. She took another hit at me and I didn't make noise. I heard her leave she probably thought she killed me anyway. I reached for my phone moaning and called the person I hate the most but who I need. "Sandy?" He said. "Help me." I croaked into the phone and dropped it as I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. This is it I thought.

You're An Innconsiderate Jerk End Of Story

I sat down on the couch cradling my expanding stomach.
"So I was thinking we can see Johnny today."
"Well I'm seeing Evie."
"Well we've seen Evie multiple times."
"Yeah but she's in worse condition."
"Johnny is in intensive care."
"Johnny just got beat up by Socs. Not only Evie got beat up by Socs but she got ran over by an SUV by a Soc."
"Of course Sandy we will do whatever you like just like every single damn thing."
Steve walked in.
"Wow guys relax."
"I'm sorry I'm just under a shit load of stress right now."
"YOU'RE UNDER STRESS?! I'm 5 and a half months pregnant with YOUR baby."
"Sandy Soda has been working a lot lately..."
"Sandy I work my ass off for our baby!"
"At a freaking gas station!"
"More then what you're doing."
"You try being pregnant. Swollen ankles puking your guts out every morning, serious weight gain."
"Oh that's just so hard."
"You try being me right now."
"How hard is it to be a low class skank?!"
I clentched my fists trying not to cry.
"And you still haven't told your god damned parents yet. Darry knows so why can't they?"
"Darrys not your fucking parent! If my parents found out they will kick me out."
"I've been kicked out if you forgot."
"oh poor you. You could've went out have sex and get another girl pregnant!"
I balance my self on the couch struggling to get up.
"Where are you going?"
"Away from you."
"Sandy Soda is your boyfriend."
"Not anymore."
Soda's mouth dropped. He took my hand and I jerked away from him.
"But it's our baby."
I walked away towards the door.
"Don't even think about being involved in our daughters life right now."
"I'm her father!"
"I don't give a fuck! You don't seem to care."
I walked out the door then I opened it again.
"Go to hell."
I proudly walked out. I got in my car and broke down I broke up with the guy I love, my baby's father. I can't help but feel I made a huge mistake. I bit my lip he's a jerk that doesn't care about me or the baby. So screw him.

Killing Me Would Just Be Easier

"Soda don't. Please."
"We have to. For us."
"Please don't please I beg of you."
He took a deep breath,"Okay."
"I'm going to the bathroom."
He nodded and fiddled with a disc. I know what it is the video of the baby. He better be careful about watching it. I left to the bathroom I made my way towards his bedroom where he was watching the baby on his laptop. Then I saw Darry walk in I tilted my head back against the wall knowing it's all over. The only words I could make out was "is Sandy pregnant?" he nodded. He cried into his chest as I cried in the hallway. I walked into his room.
"What are you gonna do when the baby is born?"
"I'm not feeling too hot I should go home."
"Sandy we all need to discuss this. Have you told your parents yet?"
"No,"
"I should tell them."
"No, no, no, no we will tell them ourselves."P
He sighed and left the room. I cried at the thought of telling my parents.
"Soda, I cant tell them."
"We have to."
"No we can't."
I left the room and went outside to be left alone. He put his arm around me.
"It's over."
"Shhhh."
My troubles faded as our eyes locked.
"We will tell them tomorrow at Friday night dinner."

I Don't Know What To Do.

"Sandy you have practice!" I groaned and rolled out of bed. I heard footsteps trail upstairs. I fixed my hair and darted to the bathroom. "Sandra! Are you all right?" I finished and wiped my mouth. "I'm fine ma." "I think I need to bring you to a doctor..." "No, no, no! I'm fine." "Whatever you say." She left the room. I brushed my teeth and started to throw up again. I groaned as I finished. She let me miss all the other weeks because of Evie but she woke up. I have to tell her I'm already showing! And thank god I've been smart about swiping the bills but we need a way to pay them. Well I'm not getting a job I am the one carrying the baby. And I have my 5 month check up tomorrow. I got my uniform out, and attempted to put it on. The top didn't fit and my bare baby bump was showing. I need a way to get out of it. I have to tell them the guilt is killing me. I can't they'll kick me out or send me away. "Mom, Taylor's giving me a ride to practice!" "Okay honey!" I put on a dress and put on a cardigan. I put my shoes on and left through the window. I got my cellphone out and called Soda. "Hey,can you pick me up?" "Yeah." I paced behind the bushes just thinking about the baby. 14 weeks, 14 freaking weeks. I shook my head in disbelief. I stopped for a moment and felt something in my stomach. I felt another one and started panicking inside. I saw his car pull up and I got in. "Wow I didn't notice how big you are." I playfully shoved him as I got in the car. "We need
to tell them soon my mom is expecting things." He stayed silent and ran his fingers through
his hair. "Where are we going?" "The hospital." "For?" "To see Johnny." "You haven't seen Evie once she's in worse condition." "How bad is she?" "I can't. It's too hard." I felt it again and hunched over. "Whats wrong?" He out his hand to my stomach and felt it. A huge grin was on his face. "The baby's kicking." I sighed in relief and he pulled up to the hospital.
"Torres." "Room 115." I opened the door and turned on the lights. I heard an annoyed voice. "Turn them off!" Soda flipped on the lights. Her face was still torn, had deep gashes, huge bruises, and stitches. She had huge casts on her body. "How are you feeling?" "I've been better. Johnny visited earlier." "Really? How is he?" "I don't know. He's at least allowed to get out of his room." "When can you? You know at least walk around?" "I don't know I have at least 6 surgeries to under go." "Steves been here everyday. I don't know why I look so ugly." "You were also stabbed in the stomach, jumped, and hit by an SUV you can't walk off looking like a model. Just be lucky you're not fat." "Hi babykins." "Babykins?""Shut up that's our name for the little nugget." He laughed we both joined in and Evie got into a couphing fit. Tears fell down my face, what happens if she doesn't make it? The doctors came in and told us to leave. I wiped the tears off my face Soda hugged me. We saw Johnny for a little bit then went home. Darry walked through the door and Soda held my hand. "Sandy, it's time."

Love Is All That Matters

I rolled over on my side staring at the pink walls. Oh not again I ran to the bathroom. I wiped my mouth when I finished. I brushed my teeth and my phone rang.
"Hey."
"How are you feeling?"
"Nauseous."
"Morning sickness?"
"Yeah."
"Well I made an appointment at the ObGYN place for us later."
"Okay I gotta go I'm starving."
I went downstairs and mom and dad were already at work. I opened the cabinet and poured myself a bowl of Lucky Charms. I wondered why I haven't noticed sooner well I do wear my uniform 95% of the time and has polyester support. I sighed as I put my bowl in the sink. We both screwed up big time but I'm the one who gets fat and let's face it child birth! I guess I should get a job I cannot tell my parents they will kill me and my baby. Their perfect only child knocked up. Shit!! I can't go to cheer today not unless I want to puke as they hoist me up on top of the pyramid.I sighed can skip one day. I wrapped my hair in a messy bun I was practicing dance
moves and I darted towards the bathroom. Second time today lovely. I got in the shower and put
on something modest so no one won't expect anything. I put a headband in and drove to DX to meet Soda. Him and Steve were goofing off showing each other.
"Do you and Sandy want to go out with me and Evie later?"
Soda looked at me.
"We don't mind."
"You ready?"
I nodded.
"Tell Watson I'm taking the rest of the day off."
"Oky buddy."
He messed up Sodas hair and we left to his car.
"Are you scared?"
I nodded. He kissed my hand assuring me I'm not alone. He parked the car and we went inside. Pregnant ladies were there with their husbands looking happy that they're pregnant. While 2 scared teenagers stuck out like a sore thumb. -.- Soda went up to the front desk.
"Curtis,"
She handed him a clipboard. He handed it to me and I filled it out and he handed it back. Someone poke her head out.
"Sandy?"
We got up and she led us to a room.
"I'm freaking out."
"There's nothing to be afraid of."
"Yeah right."
The doctor came in.
"Don't be afraid."
The doctor sat down and turned the machine on. She pulled up my top and poured that goo stuff on it.
"Alright this might be a little cool to the touch. Don't worry at your ages there's nothing that can go wrong."
I sighed in relief.
"Awesome."
"Speaking of your ages have you given any thought of what you're going to do after the baby's born?"
"Whatever Sandy wants is fine."
"Well if it makes a difference it's a girl."
Soda kissed my hand and stared at the monitor there laid my baby, our baby, our little girl. He wiped tears off his face. She printed out a picture of the baby for us. Soda left the room as I cleaned myself up. I quietly shut the door. Soda smiled at me and we went in his car he dropped me off at my house. I decided to take a walk to clear my head. I cried as I held the sonogram to my chest it's all too overwhelming. 10 weeks 10 freaking weeks along. I saw Evie so I ran away sobbing she caught up to me damn her for being on track.
"What's wrong?"
"I'm pregnant."
I explained everything to her and cried into her chest. Afterwards I got ready for our double date at the drive in. How convent we saw Juno. After the movie I cried in the car.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't want to be like that. Where you don't love me and just stick around because I'm pregnant."
"Sandy I love you and I will never leave your side."
He brushed a piece of hair out of my face and kissed my cheek.
"Our love is so strong we could get through anything including this." Soda said smiling.

I Don't Know What I Want

I inhaled as smoothly as I can trying not to cry again. He took my hand and kissed it.
"Wanna stay for dinner?"
I managed to smile. "Yeah I'm starving."
"Lucky for you Darry's cooking."
I stifled a laugh. He took my hand and lead me to the kitchen I was still in my uniform from cheer camp from school. I'm captain of the cheerleading squad, I thought to myself. All for nothing all for fucking nothing. Darry was behind the stove with steak on the grill, mashed potatoes, and greens. Usually appealing to me but the smell smelled awful. How I was for the past 2 months just thinking it was a bug. Some bug. It rose in my throat and I felt my nails digging into Soda's skin as I resisted. I made a beeline to the bathroom.
"Is Sandy all right?"
"Yeah I will go check on her."
He held my hair back as I puked. I groaned afterwards and Soda held out a cup of mouthwash. I spit it in the sink.
"Are you gonna get a..."
His voice trailed off. I shook my head. He knows I'm completely against them.
"Dinner's ready."
I nodded and wiped my mouth. Darry had a grin on his face and set down dinner.
"Feeling better Sandy?"
I nodded. "Yes much better."
"y'all scared me I thought little Sode here got you knocked up."
The color drained from my face. Our eyes locked knowing it's all over. Darry laughed.
"Soda is afraid of his own shadow he wouldn't get the head cheerleader pregnant."
"Yeah funny."
I took a bite of my meat and scarfed the whole plate down.
"Wow your eating like you're eating for two there. I'm going to get you more food."
Pony and Johnny walked in and Soda made the I will kill you sign. They kept their mouthes shut. We finished up and went back to the living room.
"Should we make an appointment at the doctor or something?"
I shrugged.
"Everything will be okay."
He kissed me.
"I highly doubt that they will kick me out when they find out."
" I gotta tell Darry."
"No Soda you can't. Promise me you won't."
"Sandy..."
"Soda he can't know about our situation."
Our eyes locked and soon enough our lips locked.
"I love you Sandy and I love our baby."
"I love you too."
I cringed at the word baby.
"I should start heading home..."
"Or you could spend the night here."
"The last time that happened. Well look where I am now."
"True. I'll walk you to your car."
I got up and we walked to the driveway. I wiped tears off my face.
"Do you want to keep it?"
"Do you?"
"Well yeah. Sandy I love you so much words can't describe. Sure all of us will work harder but it's all gonna be worth it."
"Oh Soda. I love you so much."
We leaned up against my car kissing.
"Good night Sandy."
I waved to him and kissed him on the cheek. I drove off everything could get better that is if we survive telling my parents.

Yup I'm Screwed Big Time

I hugged my knees to my chest as tears slowly fell down my face. I bit my lip as fresh tears fell down. No one was home that day we got carried away. I stared at the 3 positive tests on the sink. But that wasn't our first time doing it. I wiped my tears off my face and heard my parents laughing down the hall. They will kill me once they find out. I looked at my cheerleading pictures on the walls I will get kicked off then I will have nothing. Poor Soda they're just barely surviving on their own they can't raise a baby. It's been over 2 months since we last had sex. Oh God! Am I showing? I lifted up my uniform top and saw a small bump I put my hand to it. I'm fucked really fucked. I should have noticed it before the weight gain, constant hunger, morning sickness, it's all too much. I need to tell him. I shakily picked up my phone.
"Hey babe."
"Can I come over?"
"Of course."
I hung up the phone and drove to his place. My uniform felt tight on my stomach. I got out of the car and fixed my hair and makeup. He answered the door his brown hair messy.
"Hey."
He leaned in for a kiss but I tensed. He took my hand and led me to the living room.
"You said you wanted to talk?"
"Yeah. We might have a problem..."
"And what could that be?"
His famous grin was on is face making him irresistible.
"Im pregnant."
"Are you serious?"
I nodded.
"I'm really scared."
"How far along are you?"
"Maybe over 2 months..."
His face paled and I started crying again.
"I'm so sorry."
"It's okay we will get through this together."
I tried to crack a smile but I broke out in tears all over again.